Saturday, February 11, 2006
FUCK IT.
Seriously, I'm feeling so fucked up now. Screwed!
I HATE MYSELF!
YES I HATE MYSELF, FOR BEING SUCH A DUMB ASS. WAKE UP JOANNA!
I fucking got to wake up and move on! Stop being a loser begging someone to come back to you when you know she love you no more.
YES! LOVE ME NO MORE!
YES! I'M OUT OF LOVE, AND YA I'M BEING DUMPED!
But you know what, it's your fucking loss! Why should get myself so upset and devastated, when you can be out there having fun with some others!
What the fuck am I doing here, crying like some bastard night after night, day after day. She made it clear, it's the end, love no more, fading feelings, don't treat you right, unsure how she feels towards me blah blah blah. I seriously don't deserve it all. And after everything you did, I still wanted you back! oh my dear lord. Love is really blind. (shann, remember u ask me something like what do u see in that someone, love is blind my dear)

I hate crying. I wanna be strong for everyone who cares. I will, cos I'm a cool and strong girl. =)
For the past week, I really wanna thank NETTE, DREY, CAR, SHANN, MY PIG, ELENA and many many more. I love you guys man! I promise I will love myself. yeahhh I love myself can!

I did something crazy, and my heart beated fast.
Allow this to work, I chant I chant I chant I chant.

Right now, I'm so pissed with my internet connection. I wanna smash my comp! I wanna screamm.
I'm just a comp idiot, ok I am.

*KISS GOODBYE

C'est tout.
at 12:26 AM